Fuck these feelings we just bury 'em until anxiety Creep up on 'em in the darkness toying with our psyche I think we need a change of scenery it's time to sight see Direct my people do the right thing I feel like Spike Lee But what the fuck is right and wrong what is good and bad I just sing a song from this pen and pad Where do we belong we on a troubled path Need a future bag Rap in present this the gift of gab Ghost of Christmas past got me thinking bout the things I had It's stories I can tell 'cause I was bearing witness Funny how we male but we never can address our feelings Letter to myself everything is written In this third dimension Hope the earth work out ain't talking planet fitness Raise the bar Feeling alive I pick up my people yeah this is a dead lift That genie inside of the bottle do dirt for the devil they sent us a death wish Just points on a checklist It's looking like Tetris Our blocks be falling So we get reckless It's looking like breakfast Our mamas be mourning the toast leave us breathless I know I did wrong but he see my soul Institutionalized I ain't even know Like the frog in the pot We ain't know it was hot put us inside the water and cooked us slow This a crockpot got me hotboxed I'm off two shots this a free throw Life is on the line niggas getting foul But I see the signs it's a long road Look in my red eyes I'm high on a late night The truth be in plain sight I'm shaking like turbulence ready to take flight So much suppression the lack of some capital got us in states of depression I'm anxious they drawing they weapons to paint us as villains I'm numb to it all ain't no Question Different day same old shit Write my bars hit my licks Check my phone what I miss Awww shit 'Notha body in a ditch 'Notha soul to reminisce fuck the world life's a bitch I'm feeling numb Don't hit my phone right now I just wanna be alone right now I'm feeling numb Don't hit my phone right now I just wanna be alone right now Been conditioned to brush it off and just keep it pushing Institutionalized by trauma the proof is in the pudding Smoking on these trees but indeed we beating around the bushes Putting feelings off fuck walking that mile we pussyfooting I'm at a point in my art where I'm just numb to the praise Just wanna see this translate so we can really get paid Ran circles 'round niggas now they bent out of shape These squares don't really know what it take so they hit the breaks I press the gas I'm ready to pass I'm ready to dash who ready to catch me Examine my life and study my plight I'm realizing they wanna test me I'm feeling like Gretzky I'm sliding on thin ice Made a right Down to the culdesac It's dead ends Bury us like artifacts My art is facts I wish the case wasn't that 'cause I'm really feeling empty with thoughts Tell me the cost We pay just to cover our faults Cover our lost We all really like to cry in the dark The way we was taught To never let 'em see us falling a part So we numb Different day same old shit Write my bars hit my licks Check my phone what I miss Awww shit 'Notha body in a ditch 'Notha soul to reminisce fuck the world life's a bitch I'm feeling numb Don't hit my phone right now I just wanna be alone right now I'm feeling numb Don't hit my phone right now I just wanna be alone right now All our straps is automatic All our stress is post traumatic All our straps is automatic All our stress is post traumatic

I'm going stupid I'm going stupid I'm out my mind I'm bout to lose it I'm bout to lose it I'm in my bag I gotta do it I gotta do it I hit the gas I'm getting to it I'm getting to it I'm going stupid I'm going stupid I'm out my mind I'm bout to lose it I'm bout to lose it I'm in my bag I gotta do it I gotta do it I hit the gas I'm getting to it I'm getting to it Okay okay Okay okay I talk my shit I stack my chip that Frito Lay I'm in the game but I don't play No I don't play No direction come my way Just come my way What you mad for What you sad for 105 on the dashboard Fuck the task force Baby girl think I'm groovy She wanna do me Hit the scene let's make a movie Let's make a movie Okay okay I'm going stupid I'm going stupid I'm out my mind I'm bout to lose it I'm bout to lose it I'm in my bag I gotta do it I gotta do it I hit the gas I'm getting to it I'm getting to it I'm going stupid I'm going stupid I'm out my mind I'm bout to lose it I'm bout to lose it I'm in my bag I gotta do it I gotta do it I hit the gas I'm getting to it I'm getting to it Okay okay Okay okay No this ship is not for sale Don't ride my wave We in the cut like a barber come catch this fade Write these emotions all in Braille now feel my pain Wait Ain't no limit to my grind I'm bout it bout it Everything I touch a masterpiece you better never doubt it I got brothers in the system man them prisons hella crowded So I'm jugging they need money on they books Going stupid got 'em shook I'm going stupid I'm going stupid I'm out my mind I'm bout to lose it I'm bout to lose it I'm in my bag I gotta do it I gotta do it I hit the gas I'm getting to it I'm getting to it I'm going stupid I'm going stupid I'm out my mind I'm bout to lose it I'm bout to lose it I'm in my bag I gotta do it I gotta do it I hit the gas I'm getting to it I'm getting to it Live my life Look into my mind tell me what do ya find I done did my time I'm institutionalized This is how we feel we going stupid tonight Live my life Look into my mind tell me what do ya find I done did my time I'm institutionalized This is how we feel we going stupid tonight

Big dog big fish All we ever try to be is hood rich Pop a bottle pop a bean you know it's lit Spread these hundreds 'cross the face now take this pic Ok we Drowning all our problems until we pass out Beefing over dollar bills so they slaughter cash cow Baby girl think I'm fronting watch me blow her back out Rushing to the bag from here to Moscow Shorty off the molly fucking with no condom Life of the party death before dishonor She gon' blow like TNT my phone on DND I can't show em all this game this ain't TNT You know I be In the cut Henny in the cup Only few to trust What the fuck You can't fuck with us We be in a rush On the go You know how it go Never break the code yeah Tell 'em it's slow yeah Tell 'em it's slow Pray to God but we not religious Granny say go to church but we in the trenches Can't no preacher ever reach us about how we feeling Forced us to wear these masks now it's mass killings I be chillin What it do You know how i do You know how i groove Get her wet up inside the whip that's a carpool Show respect when a nigga flex I got shit to prove Catch this rec if you wanna step we ain't got no rules For the money i need all the smoke Big worm Roll a eiffy so we all can smoke Let it burn Saw my OGs put in all the work My turn We was thirsty just to do some dirt Had to learn Bitch we extra Never test us Do my dance with no effort Living reckless Living like it's no tomorrow Our time is borrowed Roll that blunt and pour that bottle Until we spiral Yurr aye Know the deal this is how we feel Ironic that we fed up but we need a mill Ghetto boy up in college I was doing me Got student debt but my niggas in debt to the streets Fuck Sallie Mae from the back that's just where I'm at When I get rich off this rap still won't pay her back Told my brothers check they pack Yeah they lacing thrax Homie died from a blunt he ain't coming back Yeah they gone This the life of a 20 something Never having nothing Different strokes all up in the pussy call me Phillip Drummond Need it bad Yea she Superbad Want some McLoving Hit the gas hundred on dash We just keep running We conditioned Oh lord we conditioned Black man in America no time to process feelings Living close to the edge no care watch him cock and then squeeze Jet from the scene black bodies all from that magazine So many issues RIPs on they news feed but they don't miss you Clout chasing ya dead soul like they was with you Can't get a grip on this life so we just grip the pistol My nigga sipping on activist calling me an activist Xanies and Percocets be numbing all of the damages We be drowning in bottles just to run from the challenges Ass titties and music as I take in this cannibus Aw shit For the money i need all the smoke Big worm Roll a eiffy so we all can smoke Let it burn Saw my OGs put in all the work My turn We was thirsty just to do some dirt Had to learn Bitch we extra Never test us Do my dance with no effort Living reckless Living like it's no tomorrow Our time is borrowed Roll that blunt and pour that bottle Until we spiral Yurr aye

Fuck the love where the cash at Venmo or the cash app Flow so sick come to my shows in a hazmat Bag back We be dropping bombs like it’s Baghdad Big facts Keep da napalm in da knapsack Put out Sinsinnati had some niggas on the fence Ain’t compete with a artist from my city ever since Hold my dick Talk my shit Middle fingers in my pics Just in case a hater scrolling They can feel just how it is Uh, really I been out the way Now we getting active, tell them niggas we outside today Road trips with Brotha Blu and B.A.N.K.$. they think we from the AFuck the love where the cash at Venmo or the Cash App Flow so sick come to my shows in a hazmat Bag back we be dropping bombs like it's Baghdad Big facts Keep the napalm in da knapsack Put out Sinsinnati had some niggas on the fence Ain't compete with a rapper from my city ever since Hold my dick Talk my shit Middle fingers in my pics Just in case a hater scrolling they can feel just how it is Really I been out the way Now we getting active tell them niggas we outside today Road trips with Brotha Blu and B.A.N.K.$. they think we from the A Up and down Edgewood networking making plays I'm just tryna make a way Hurting but I mask the pain I just keep improving I been pushing through my saddest days Heart turned cold a long time ago I need some space Yellow brick road getting lonely though I need to pray I been on my grind ain't got no time for them clubs yeah People want yo' shine so it's only few I trust yeah Guard my energy no empathy I show no love yeah Yeah I got no love Lessons turn to blessings turn my Ls into Dubs yeah Do this for my son place nobody else above him I just been on ten I'm tryna win I show no love yeah Yeah I got no love Had a talk with one my niggas He been tripping in his feelings He be latched on to the block and he can never keep his distance This is all he ever witnessed so he never wanna leave When his dogs act like pussies that's his pet peeve This what happens when a young man get a broken heart Grip his pistol while he sleeping as he crying in the dark 'Cause the streets don't love him And his bitch don't love him Mom and daddy don't love him 'Merica ain't never loved him So he thinking why the fuck I'm keeping peace up on this block Any second I could speak and be a victim of a cop Wanna nail me in a coffin so I keep the hammer strapped fool Couple car tools lay you flat just to jack you Feel this in my arteries This life it's been a part of me Conditioned by environment anxiety been harming me Heart begins to harden Need to step back like I'm Harden Thought I'd find love in this rap but it only made me heartless I be tryna keep my poise But my spirit so annoyed How they silencing a black man to this white noise I was heartless to some women hope that karma I avoid Was getting cash didn't check for y'all just bounced to the void Yeah I don't do apologies I rather just decline Flipping intellectual properties a realer state of mind Feel inclined to tell y'all how I feel Fuck how you feel Too many times I highlighted folks that never kept it real I been on my grind ain't got no time for them clubs yeah People want yo' shine so it's only few I trust yeah Guard my energy no empathy I show no love yeah Yeah I got no love Lessons turn to blessings turn my Ls into Dubs yeah Do this for my son place nobody else above him I just been on ten I'm tryna win I show no love yeah Yeah I got no love

Time and money tell me how you spend it Everybody want it 'til they get it Fast cars jewelry and the women Want this life until we really live it Most my people come up from the trenches Never had much in they condition You can't really blame us nah you can't really blame us nah Look inside the mind of a menace Wouldn't show love if this was tennis Hate in his soul got him limping Broken pockets grabbing ammunition Hope the money erase all the pain Upped his coins now his mood changed Late nights swerving thru the lanes In a bucket thinking of a Range Ten toes gripping every block Ten hoes working 'round the clock Ten fold rising like a stock Ten four hear it from the cops Copy that cop another pack Run it back to back to back to back to back Same shit just a different day Tryna get it each and every way Time and money tell me how you spend it Everybody want it 'til they get it Fast cars jewelry and the women Want this life until we really live it Most my people come up from the trenches Never had much in they condition You can't really blame us nah you can't really blame us nah Time and money tell me how you spend it Everybody want it 'til they get it Fast cars jewelry and the women Want this life until we really live it Most my people come up from the trenches Never had much in they condition You can't really blame us nah you can't really blame us nah Look inside the mind of a artist Thinking of a luxury apartment Bullseye tryna hit the target Life disconnected I can't call it Wake up write another verse Scratch then replace hope it work Came up out the mud from the dirt Everything I write is down to earth Running this imaginary race Remind me of my peoples down on Chase Serving rocks tryna beat a case I'm serving raps tryna be a great Late nights grinding in the booth Ain't have no money for the stu Fuck it put the mic in my room Mad villain motherfuckers doomed Treat 'em like the food on my plate Niggas threw dirt on my name Cleaned it off ain't leave a stain Cleaned it off ain't leave a stain I take ya hip hop license Just 'cause you gotta sixteen don't mean you can drive it I'm 'bout to suit and tie it Business professional This is correctional sentencing Call this shit your indictment Lock you up bars holy struck with the touch Midas And they side with a brother like Joseph Biden Yeah they side with a brother Dip and diving See 'em scrutinizing When I spit lines is sick get the flu if you try to bite it In the booth I'm the truth they can never fight it Talk in peace don't you speak you got laryngitis Time and money tell me how you spend it Everybody want it 'til they get it Fast cars jewelry and the women Want this life until we really live it Most my people come up from the trenches Never had much in they condition You can't really blame us nah you can't really blame us nah Time and money tell me how you spend it Everybody want it 'til they get it Fast cars jewelry and the women Want this life until we really live it Most my people come up from the trenches Never had much in they condition You can't really blame us nah you can't really blame us nah Look inside the mind of a nigga Society like to paint a picture Reckless beings with no real ambition Tryna keep my niggas at a distance Same cycles hoping that it change Rap sell packs who's the blame Systemic racists or the game Pipeline to prison or the fame Growing up I saw both sides Tell me how the truth coincide It's mathematic how we all divide Subtract us then they adding to they pie American dreams turned into night terrors in the blink of an eye Vision clouded tryna reach for the sky Instead we landed in a pile of lies Gimme space gotta levitate Need a peace of mind need to meditate Want a piece of mine I'm a set 'em straight Elevate my mind need to medicate Bodies dropping When the pistols popping Running out of options Put 'em in a coffin Been a pallbearer one too many times So I write these lines just to keep from falling Tell me who to blame We can blame the game We can blame the cops We can blame the pain Blame it on the block Blame it on our age Blame it on the rocks Blame it on our race But nothing happens when you placing the blame The hardest truth is realizing that you gotta change Nigga Time and money tell me how you spend it Everybody want it til they get it Can you really blame us, can you really blame us

La da da la da da da da da La da da la da da da da da La da da la da da da da da Reporting live from the depths of brain Running like a faucet got me sinking I’m feeling drained Tryna navigate but nigga I been stuck in my ways Tryna feel something but my heart been fading away Just hit my brother on the JPay In a cell by himself is how he spend his b day Daughter only three she thirteen on his release date Writing all these lines in the stu how I release pain I’m tryna seek change okay Watch me pack out shows every single night Yeah I need a thousand gigs nigga that’s a terabyte I got hard drive Locked in my archives Handcuffed to my dreams The more I do the more it ain’t what it seems ‘Cause I’ve been feeling some comfort in validation Internet praise will have you feeling complacent Find the right angle these lines standing adjacent To goals that I set when I locked myself in the basement To hit the pavement I’m in my element like CO2 More to do more to prove I’m tryna see it through The more traction that I gain I feel it’s more to lose I wipe my feet and hit the streets they feel my every They feel my every move Feel every move that I make and hear every word that I speak I move at ultra light speed You ain’t seen nothing like me Nah it ain’t nothing like That’s why I must do what I do ‘cause this is way bigger than me But it ain’t better than me Ain’t nothing better than me I hope you betting on me Damn right I’m betting on me If you plan on stepping on me I hope you bring yo’ homie And bring an extra homie ‘Cause my niggas extra on me And as much as we preach for the peace I can’t let you get a piece When we play we play for keeps All we find is all we keep Capiche Shit shackles on my brain I been moving silent through pain tryna break away from these chains Every dog be having it’s day and I’m tryna get off the leash Break the lease Some people never was key Lived in my head rent free I feel I mirror my brother that’s locked in prison We both inside of a system that’s tryna keep us conditioned Prisoner of my art I’m rapping a life sentence So locked inside my vision can’t see who I’m killing They killed my big cousin on thanksgiving Saw (bleep) battle with feelings And lately we ain’t been clicking I watch her heal from a distance Feelings can go numb when emotions been in a prison Institutionalized when your brain get convicted The hood can feel like a prison These schools can feel like a prison Everyday a routine we graded by our decisions Cell block or the block or sell your soul for an image See me sail in the distance Who’s to blame for these feelings I’m feeling attacked These layers get packed I’m peeling it back I just wanna rap Sit back and relax and count all my racks But these tracks can put you in a valley Writing all these lines how the fuck I let these bars trap me ‘Putting‘ no because La da da la da da da da da La da da la da da da da da La da da la da da da da da Reporting live from the depths of brain Running like a faucet got me sinking I'm feeling drained Tryna navigate but nigga I been stuck in my ways Tryna feel something but my heart been fading away Just hit my brother on the JPay In a cell by himself is how he spend his b day Daughter only three she thirteen on his release date Writing all these lines in the stu how I release pain I'm tryna seek change okay Watch me pack out shows every single night Yeah I need a thousand gigs nigga that's a terabyte I got hard drive Locked in my archives Handcuffed to my dreams The more I do the more it ain't what it seems 'Cause I've been feeling some comfort in validation Internet praise will have you feeling complacent Find the right angle these lines standing adjacent To goals that I set when I locked myself in the basement To hit the pavement I'm in my element like CO2 More to do more to prove I'm tryna see it through The more traction that I gain I feel it's more to lose I wipe my feet and hit the streets they feel my every They feel my every move Feel every move that I make and hear every word that I speak I move at ultra light speed You ain't seen nothing like me Nah it ain't nothing like That's why I must do what I do 'cause this is way bigger than me But it ain't better than me Ain't nothing better than me I hope you betting on me Damn right I'm betting on me If you plan on stepping on me I hope you bring yo' homie And bring an extra homie 'Cause my niggas extra on me And as much as we preach for the peace I can't let you get a piece When we play we play for keeps All we find is all we keep Capiche Shit shackles on my brain I been moving silent through pain tryna break away from these chains Every dog be having it's day and I'm tryna get off the leash Break the lease Some people never was key Lived in my head rent free I feel I mirror my brother that's locked in prison We both inside of a system that's tryna keep us conditioned Prisoner of my art I'm rapping a life sentence So locked inside my vision can't see who I'm killing They killed my big cousin on thanksgiving Saw (bleep) battle with feelings And lately we ain't been clicking I watch her heal from a distance Feelings can go numb when emotions been in a prison Institutionalized when your brain get convicted The hood can feel like a prison These schools can feel like a prison Everyday a routine we graded by our decisions Cell block or the block or sell your soul for an image See me sail in the distance Who's to blame for these feelings I'm feeling attacked These layers get packed I'm peeling it back I just wanna rap Sit back and relax and count all my racks But these tracks can put you in a valley Writing all these lines how the fuck I let these bars trap me Rappers in the city be so bitter 'bout a nigga's luck Putting artists down how 'bout you try to lift that nigga up No I'm not a conscious rapper no I'm not an activist Don't lock me in a box just because my voice is passionate Just let me be me Let me be me Just let me be me This is how we feel Let me be me Just let me be me This is how we feel

Feeling lost in the darkness In and out of love and it feel like I’m fallin I been trippin Keeping my distance Tryin hard not to break down So much on my plate don’t know how much i can take now Everyone forgetting about me Don’t know who to trust with all these vultures around me But i Stand on my two Even when theres no one to talk to Imma keep on pushing w/o you To get free Verse 1: Black woman First mother Birth mother We all know it But some ignore it And take cover Behind a mask of hatred they got for black woman I gotta say it bc i came from a black woman A black woman i love pushed out my son At that moment saw divine intervention come from above But then i think about breonna Taylor No one could save her Crooked cops robbed her of motherhood and doing good When HER career was bout saving lives Irony evil and wicked the way it severe ties Keep y’all some mace or a strap when y’all gotta go outside I Know some pervert ass niggas left them with silent cries Not advertised But still you rise Rapped for rapsody on her tour She said my pen was sharp and told me i gotta stay the course She said i had a gift as she looked in my eyes Inspiration from a black woman is all that we need sometimes I swear to god Chorus Verse 2: Nigga, don’t try to say you inspired by us Always leaning on our shoulder just to leave us in the dust Don’t call me strong that ain’t no compliment Being strong is why we’re disregarded and we’re suffering But Don’t get it twisted i know how powerful i can be I know my grandmothers is watching and they so proud of me A force to be afraid of society bring it outta me Angry black woman cuz nigga i got the right to be But i ain’t really angry I’m tired Tired of negotiating wages when I’m tryna get hired  Tired of feeling all this pain with no place to go higher I just need my voice amplified Gimme a bullhorn and worldwide intercom I’ll let the whole entire world know bout my power Want us to be y’all therapist but tell me who gon be ours? We go missing for hours, days, weeks and months at a time No one can find I been feeling confined Now I , just wanna be free Chorus